Life can be messy. Life can sometimes be confusing and frustrating and all kinds of weird. It’s a hard line to draw in the sand sometimes where to step in, when to pull out, when to make the move, when to move forward and take the leap, when to consider options and to slow down… It’s a lot like the Ecclesiastes author – a time for this and a time for that… But what that fucking author fails to tell us in this great book of wisdom is, when to do what at which time! Of course – isn’t that fitting? The book of “Life” is basically telling you to figure it the fuck out all on your own. Honestly? I am actually grateful for it. It keeps it raw, messy… real. It keeps it real… and I love real.
Currently, I have experienced so many ups and downs within this last year and a half. Last I checked in, I was starting a new position with a mortgage company as a compliance officer. I loved that job. I loved the work I did. I think because it was challenging and focused on research and, well, it was all brand new. I don’t know if you know this about me, but I am kind of an information whore. I am not going to lie. If I find a subject matter I am interested in – it is likely I will become a “mini-master” in that area. Enough so that I can discuss and influence points on that topic and if I am further interested I will seek out credentials validating my knowledge. I love to learn. A true-blue, bonafide learning whore. I guess there are better descriptors out there, but my learning is just like life – raw, messy and real.
I had to implement one of those “which times to do what” moments recently – and boy, (or girl – I am all about equality!) am I glad I did. I took a leap and I left that job I loved at the mortgage company. The general reason I give would of course be because the company was merging with another company – reforming under a new name… I wasn’t being talked to about my position in the new merger… I saw the writing on the wall – they were done with me. But, it was time. The actual reasons outside of that general reason, was my boss was one of the most challenging I had ever worked for in my life. Ruling with an iron fist, petty micromanagement, and this intense pressure to stay late, work more with little to no reward, random emotional blowups to colleagues… I felt like I was in an abusive relationship. And so it goes, I decided I had already absorbed enough of the mortgage world to put that one to bed and venture into yet another new industry all together…. It was one of the best choices I made..
I took another position with this incredible company as a Training Coordinator. I knew I was qualified to do the work, but I am surprisingly swept off my feet and in love with how much I truly enjoy logistics work! It has been a whirlwind, but I couldn’t be happier. I love this team. I love this company, and I couldn’t be happier with my decision. And with normal working hours, I am able to actually arrive home at a decent hour and resume some artwork that has long been overdue. I am starting 3 projects this week… So I’ll be posting about the progress of them soon.
And life in general… Life has been incredible. It’s been hard, of course… raw, and messy… beautiful, but real. And my God… Would I have it any other way?
More to come… my yearly bucket list has on it this year (and the one to come): to keep you posted and updated on life, art, and work. And how the 3 can seem unrelated at times, but feed our every need…
Stay tuned…